So, at the beginning of the year, there was a new kid at Turner. And of course everyone was all up on his nuts. He was a little skater kid with a lip piercing.When i seen him i knew he was going to be the kid to hang with my group of friends. He was cute. Not just cute, but CUTE. To me, anyways.
I remember the first time i actually had a conversation with him. He didn’t talk very much. He was standing alone in the lunch line, so i went and stood with him. I remember him telling me, “I talk more at home than at school. Lets hang sometime.” I remember sitting down, Just us to at the table. He told me he got his phone taken away by the gym teacher. So i asked for his number, so i could spam his phone while he had it taken away. So, i sat there and spammed him. Later when he got his phone back we started texting. He was a pretty cool kid.
About a week Later, DeLacy decided that she liked him. That made me kind of hurt. But she was my friend. And i knew she would get him. I love DeLacy. But she gets every guy, and she cheats on them. But everyone knows that. But Jordan didn’t. He was new.
About a week later they started dating. &I found out she was also dating someone else. I told Jordan. And he said he knew. He said how he cared about DeLacy, and couldn’t break up with her, even tho he knew she was cheating.
What was going through that boys mind, i have no idea. But eventually Jordan broke her off. They didn’t date very long. And i was there for him when he was sad.
About a week or two later, me and Jordan were talking one night. It was right before Mikayla’s birthday party. He told me he liked me. &I was so giddy, because i liked him back. I was happy, thinking about dating him.
Around that same time, i was in a “thing” with this kid. Tanner Hammond. We never actually met, or hung out. But we texted each other, and webcammed. Every time me and Tanner made plans, they would never work. We made plans for him to come to Mikayla’s birthday. But like always, plans failed.
At Mikayla’s birthday, Jordan was there. Bekah had been flirting with him. And i was Jealous. Even tho i had whatever with Tanner.
Later on in the evening, they kissed. And it just killed me to pieces. I almost cried. Jordan even came up to me, and was trying to make me cheer up. But he had no clue thats why i was sad.
Bekah and Jordan only dated for about a month and a half. Bekah went into the hospital for some weird seizure thing. Bekah didnt want to date Jordan anymore. So she would hardly talk to him. Jordan would text me, saying how he missed her. How he loved her. That hurt like hell. But i just sat there and comferted him. Well, Bekah broke up with him. He was crushed. And i got him up and on his feet again.
Halloween came. &Tanner and I were going to hang out with Annalee, DeLacy, Mikayla, Blayne, Joey, and Allen. Like always, Tanner couldn’t come. And that’s when i told Tanner that i couldn’t deal with it anymore. That we had never seen each other. And we always tried, and it always failed. It wasn’t a break up, because we weren’t dating, but it felt like one.
I was sitting there Crying at DeLacy’s house. Jordan happened to call me, and see if i wanted to hang, and when he heard me crying, he went down to DeLacy’s house for me. When he got there, Him and Mikayla, Allen and I, all went walking around the neighborhood. Eventually Mikayla’s grandma came and drove us to different neighborhoods. I was having a great night, and was forgetting all about Tanner. When Grandma was dropping off the boys, i got the nerve to put my head on his shoulder. He said he liked it. Doing that gave my tummy butterfly’s.
We dropped him off at the Rec. Because he was going to go hang with Chaz, Becca, Riley, and Juli.
Him and Juli started dating that night. It crushed me. I was so upset. I couldn’t believe that. Juli has sex with everyone. She uses guys for there dicks. It sounds mean, but its true.
Jordan figured that out. He left her after a week. I was happy he was single again.
Then Bekah decided she wanted him back. Again, I was torn.
They dated for about a week. Then she broke up with him again.
And again, he came to me, crying, hurt, crushed. I was there. I got him back up again.
A couple days later he asked if i still liked him. I told him of course i did. He told me that we should start holding hands at school. I liked the idea. So, we did.
A week later, i went to his house to hang out with him. Bekah was there. And it was awkward. She said she was over him. But i knew she wasn’t. But she hurt him. Twice.
We were all in his living room. She was on her twitter, and me and Jordan were cuddling. I looked up at him. And. He. Kissed. Me.
My heart stopped beating.
My tummy was filled with butterfly’s. I was so freakun’ happy.
Bekah wasn’t. When Me and Her got to Mikayla’s house later, she was crying. It made me mad. She had her chances. And she broke up with him both times.. But eventually she was okay. To this day, i think she still loves him..
The next day, on November 23, 2011, i was at Donchilidos with my Godmother and Bekah. Jordan asked me to be his girlfriend. So i told him i would be. I was so happy.
Two months later, me and Jordan got in a fight. And for about 4 weeks, we were in an off and on Relationship. It hurt. But i couldn’t leave him. He meant so much to me.
And then i found out one reason why he ended us. He told me he had cheated on me with Bekah. I was so pissed, and so hurt. I cried. For days. And i cut. So deep. Those scars, sadly, will never go away.
Eventually we got back on the road of happiness. Then he got mad. Because Becca and Riley were telling him lies. Saying i was flirting with people. He left.
I was so depressed. I spent the weekend crying. I cried in Annalee’s arms. Jacob’s arms. Maria’s arms. Tabbers arms. And Austin Dorsey’s. I love them. So much.
Jordan told me he still loved me. And Always would, But he told me i deserved someone better than him. And he wanted me to find that person. I didn’t want to find that person. He was who i wanted. Who i still want.
I tried to be happy without him. He tried to be happy without me.
But it wasn’t working. He ended up going home, one day. Because he was crying. He didn’t want me seeing him cry.
He wrote me a note. I still have the note. Saying how much he fucked up. Saying how much he loves me. Saying how much pain he’s in. Saying this will be his final chance, and he will show me it will be different if i took him back.
I couldn’t stand the pain any longer. Not mine, or his. So yeah. I tool him back. He gave me the biggest smile i had ever seen anyone have when i did. I almost cried. Before he left, he gave me a really good kiss, and a really, really long hug. And at that moment, i knew he was mine again. And he’s going to be for a long, long while.. <3 He tells me everyday how im important to him. Things have changed, in a good way. I’m just so happy to be with him again. I don’t have any regrets of taking him back. Everyone fights, and argues. We just did more than others.
Jordan loves skate boarding. Sometimes i question if he loves it more than me. But the other day, i was at the skate park with him. On his skate board, he wrote “Jordan <3 Ashley” It made my day. Considering how much he loves to skate board.. It made me feel special. That kid is crazy. And i love every inch of him <3 I love you, Jordan Michael Thorpe-Siefkas <333